{"id":213,"date":"2009-11-29T11:12:25","date_gmt":"2009-11-29T18:12:25","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/192.168.205.130\/?p=213"},"modified":"2009-12-06T11:24:22","modified_gmt":"2009-12-06T18:24:22","slug":"letting-go","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/lewismoon.com\/?p=213","title":{"rendered":"Six Months"},"content":{"rendered":"

From Sharon’s Blog:<\/em><\/p>\n

I have to admit the fact.\u00a0 He is gone.\u00a0 Forever in this life.\u00a0 Gone from my touch, my hearing, all my senses.\u00a0 It is a particular loneliness to face that change.\u00a0 For when you are intimately connected and married to someone your senses intermingle and all of the ways the body goes about connecting the other\u00a0become fixed:\u00a0 routines get established at a very visceral and I am sure cellular and sub-cellular level.\u00a0 Phermones are just a hint of how lovers hook up their senses to one another.<\/p>\n

So I am adrift from all that now, but some part of me is still waiting for the other shoe to drop, for the sameness, the routines, the regularity, the indivisibility of\u00a0our accumulated oneness to reassert itself and demand that I conform and get back into the routine.<\/p>\n

No matter, though, it won\u2019t and can\u2019t work.\u00a0 I am but a fragment now of what that oneness had become, a solitary interloper on a strange new planet.<\/p>\n

I am making a few new connections, feeling my boundaries and oneness now as an individual in ways that surprise me.\u00a0 I can see that I can go on, even alone, the rest of my days.\u00a0 My mother did that when she lost my father.\u00a0 I can feel a deep commonality with her now.\u00a0 My empathy for her grows as I have assumed a taste of some of the shoes she has walked in.\u00a0<\/p>\n

I understand now, even more, her fierce independence and irascibility that sometimes threw me for a loop.\u00a0 I would think we would be doing fine, that she was comfortable with some aspect of her life with me, and then she suddenly would take a right turn just when I was expecting her to go straight ahead.\u00a0 No wonder.\u00a0 Muscles need to be stretched, heart muscles and head muscles are no exception.<\/p>\n

The truth is, of course, that I would like to find a nice replacement for Lewis.\u00a0 Someone who loves me much as he did, who has many of his qualities, who is a great companion, and who is a stimulating person with unique strengths to bear in a relationship.\u00a0 I don\u2019t mind quirkiness, and I don\u2019t expect a saint.\u00a0 Largeness of heart is my most important criterion.\u00a0<\/p>\n

Let us hope that I am able to put out the kind of positive energy and attentiveness that will encourage such a relationship to grow.\u00a0<\/p>\n

If it doesn\u2019t, I won\u2019t be any worse for the wear.\u00a0
\nAnd I am sure I\u2019ll be OK and find my<\/em>\u00a0way no matter the\u00a0way this<\/em> goes.<\/em><\/p>\n

Life is<\/strong><\/em> like a box of chocolates.\u00a0\u00a0 You never know\u2026.<\/p>\n

Just ask Forrest.\u00a0<\/p>\n

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From Sharon’s Blog: I have to admit the fact.\u00a0 He is gone.\u00a0 Forever in this life.\u00a0 Gone from my touch, my hearing, all my senses.\u00a0 It is a particular loneliness to face that change.\u00a0 For when you are intimately connected and married to someone your senses intermingle and all of the ways the body goes … Continue reading “Six Months”<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_jetpack_newsletter_access":"","_jetpack_dont_email_post_to_subs":false,"_jetpack_newsletter_tier_id":0,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paywalled_content":false,"_jetpack_memberships_contains_paid_content":false,"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-213","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"jetpack_featured_media_url":"","jetpack_sharing_enabled":true,"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/lewismoon.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/213","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/lewismoon.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/lewismoon.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lewismoon.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lewismoon.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=213"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/lewismoon.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/213\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":215,"href":"https:\/\/lewismoon.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/213\/revisions\/215"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/lewismoon.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=213"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lewismoon.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=213"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/lewismoon.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=213"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}